Disorder

Vincent (Tim Burton)

           

I sit and wait,

Seems as though time has stopped.

I stare once more towards my scarred up wounds, reopening them!

Hoping that it's my time to forever fade away!

I don't belong here, I need to die!

I can't take this waiting anymore!

Once again I sit and wait,

This time with nothin to comfort me!

The blades are dull, the nooses are broken,

There's nothing left for me to grab on!

I am forever alone and... Cold!

Nothing can save me now!

I can't take this waiting anymore [seems as though time has stopped]

I stare once more towards my scarred up wounds [once again I sit and wait],

Reopening them, hoping that it's my time to forever...[this time with nothing to comfort me]

...Fade away!

I don't belong here, [the blades are dull, the nooses are broken!]

I need to die... I can't take this waiting anymore [there's nothing left for me to grab on]

I need to die...

[Once again I sit and wait, there's nothing left for me to grab on]

I need to die...[this time with nothing to comfort me]

Once again I sit and wait [the blades are dull, the nooses are broken

There's nothing left for me to grab onto...]

I need to die...

I don't belong here... I don't belong here...

I am forever alone and cold... Nothing can save me now!

Desordem, falta de coerência, ausência de lógica, desvario, bagunça e uma definição quase que perfeita para mim. 
 Todo o dia é a mesma bagunça, pensamentos embaralhados, sentimentos que não sei nomear e um vazio crônico. Desordem... Estou uma bagunça e não tem ninguém que possa me ajudar. 
 Minhas fotografias em sua grande maioria, são em preto e branco, entretanto, isso não tem haver com a questão estética, mas sim com minha dualidade, meu pensamento preto e branco, inflexível, um olhar que denuncia essa grande desordem em minha mente.

 "Confusion in her eyes that says it all
She's lost control
And she's clinging to the nearest passer by
She's lost control
And she gave away the secrets of her past
And said I've lost control again
And of a voice that told her when and where to act
She said I've lost control again" (Joy Division)